Week 1 : Introduction to the module

This week is the first week of the third semester, I could not belive that it is my last semester at BCUIC. Honestly, I was not ready for this semester eventhough I overcame last semester pretty well. The reason for this is that I think I need more time to heal, something inside me said that I am not okay. However, I think finally everything will be okay. We talked about what we are going to do for this module, research and topic.

Last semester, I was not satified with my project’s outcome so this semester I will try my best to sastified myself.

Week 2: Researching

This session, I was not there because I ate something my flatmate gave me and I had never seen it before. I got really bad stomachache and could not sleep. I think it is because of the heat, I was born in summer but I really hate summer. I got sick easily in summer and got a symptom that my body does not sweat much so it keeps the heat inside. This makes me feel so unwell and England does not have AC to solve my problem.

Week 3: Researching

I have not done my artist research yet, it is really hard when every resource is in French because I choose France for my location. Bhavik was so mad at me because I did not finish anything. I was also mad at me because I did everything really slow. This week, I already feel the workload getting so huge that I think I can die because of it.

This session, Bhavik reviewed the session last week, because both me and Yizhen were absent. For the artist research model which he gave us, it is really huge information to do. I think I need to change the way I study because I did everything really slow. With this speed, I can predict that I can not survive this semester or meet my own standard for myself.

Week 4: Interview Practice

I got fired already !!!!

As I predicted before, I could not finish things as soon as possible. There were some trouble I had when I reasearch on artists who already passed away.

1 – They were so popular and iconic that people had many types of resource about them. It is easy to find the academic resources for them.

2 – They were well-known but they were not as popular as others to compare. Then, it is really hard to find information about them.

That was the reason why I spent 7 hours on 1 artist but i did not have anything about them. I was so mad that I got really cranky in the morning. I think I did not like doing research this time because it is stresssing me out .

About the interview part, I fail because I did not remember information at the moment I present and I did not answer questions pretty well eventhough I had knowledge about them. Plus, Bhavik was mad at me again with the same reason as last week and I did not make any excuses. I am finding a way to change how I study.

Week 5

This week, I went to classes all alone. All of my classmates were sick and I think next week I will be sick as well, I hope not. I have 1vs1 with my tutor for the research essay that I am working on. I was so cranky because it was so hot the night before that I could not sleep. For my research essay, I tried to write it more professionally but there was still a lot of feedback that I have to fix. This made me realise why I just got 6.0 for my IELTS writing test. Most of the problem is I translate my own words from my language to english so sometimes it does not reflect the actual meaning of what I want to say. This is a common problem for bilingual people, my tutor said. I have premium Vietnamese (This is a trendy term of GenZ in Vietnam when people have a good vocabulary) which makes me write essays so well in Vietnamese but it does not work in my English. I hope I can improve my writing skills this semester.

The research is still so crazy, I got so stressed after just 3 days doing research and I do not want to do it anymoreeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Week 6&7:

I got so sick these weeks, both my mental health and physical health collapsed. Sometimes, I think being a girl/woman is tiring because we do not know why we are sad, maybe because of hormones, stress, period, missing home,…. I do not know what is wrong with me. I could not even get up and work. 

We were introduced to many types of art movements. I was so surprised by myself because I have a lot of knowledge and understanding of these art movements. I think it is because I read so much research from last semester and this semester which allows me to answer questions about art movements in class. This is kind of a development (I guess??). From today’s class, I realised that there were many art movements about the environment and ecosystem which I think the concern of the environment was raising from many years ago. I am heading to green infrastructure and green technology recently and in the future. I think as an artist and an architect, it is necessary to contribute to the development of reserving the environment because I saw many green places have been destroyed by the act of art. I do not want art to become a factor of destruction. 

I really enjoyed today’s class, I learnt and knew about the art movement deeply which broadened my perspective a lot. 

Week 8:

This week, we did a presentation about the art movement which we chose last week. Mine is eco-art. I tried to do the presentation better but I do not think that worked because I still got shaken and spoke in a chaotic way. I cannot imagine how I am going to survive the final presentation for this semester. My tutors gave me good feedback for my presentation but these all for about I explained information well. The presentation skills are still not getting better. 

Week 9:

This week, we were introduced and explained to the final presentation which is the most important presentation this semester. This one got me so worried. I think I can explain things better than last semester but I do not think that I can engage the audience. As an introvert, this is a torture!!!!. Also, this presentation includes so much information that we need to present, 10 minutes is not enough for me. 

Week 10:

This week, I was updating my wordpress in class because my tutor was really mad at me. I also discussed the final presentation. I was still well this week which made me delay the plan of work for my project. The main task of the class was just keep going with out project .I cannot imagine that it is almost a year I have lived and studied in UK.